Sentiments: When I am writing, I am trying to find out who I am – Maya Angelou

So after two months I decided to write again and I found the late Maya Angelou’s quote in the Daily Post. What triggered me to write something about the said quote is that I am facing a situation that involves my real self. I’m already a stepping into my last year in college, and is already working in our thesis. The thesis is actually a group effort since we are going to do a film. The crazy part is that I had been chosen as scriptwriter,  at first I was thrilled but then I learned that I had no say in what is the content and subject of the film.

Many days passed and I was informed that it would be a cultural short film. My head and my heart were voicing out “WHAT THE F*CK, I DON’T WANT TO WRITE AND I CAN’T WRITE ABOUT CULTURE”. I was frustrated and personally, I really don’t want to make a script about a cultural film, having the mindset that I might overstep the boundaries of exploitation. But of course, it was still the say of the director and I couldn’t do a thing about it except nod and accept it. A few days later we were conceptualizing on what would happen in our story, and guess what happens. I didn’t help at all, that was one of the moments I feel very useless, sure I gave a few ideas, but it was my duty as a scriptwriter to do the majority of the thinking. When we finally have our story, my director asked me to do the sequence treatment, which I barely even wrote. I told one of my thesis mates that I really could not do it and to please understand that writing about culture isn’t my forte. It just isn’t me.

So what is my forte? Writing horror? Nope. Suspense? Guess Again. Romantic Comedy? Bingo! We have a winner!

Yes, I admit that it’s already cliche’ but this is the real me. Plus I am a young woman who yearns for some love. I couldn’t help it, so my most powerful tool isn’t a pen, but my imagination. I’m an insatiable woman, and the only thing that could satisfy me is myself. There is a thought that you could only write romance novels if you have experienced it. That is so totally wrong. I have loved but nobody loved me back and that’s cool. There’s a saying that its better to have loved and lost than to never to have loved at all, meaning it’s alright if your love was not reciprocated. It the content that counts. Plus I can’t write a story by heart unless it’s already been adapted into an anime, manga or movie.